Chapter 2 – 100 Hours, Good Luck to Me

It’s now the weekend and 4:40pm on Saturday, 25th of November 2023. And it’s now almost 100 hours since I last saw you. Words cannot even describe how suffering it is for not seeing you for so many hours. That’s why I tried to give the excuse of passing you the snack and chocolate, but my plan failed also haha. Maybe you know how tough it is for me to miss you so much, or maybe you don’t, but I can tell you it’s making me like a teenager that can’t think properly because it’s really IMYLC.

So last night’s message was all about what happened and how I felt. Today’s message… will be a mix of what happened and also how I feel and what I wish for our relationship to bloom in the future. Of course you already know how much I care and love you in my heart, but did you also know I really love the way you look? Yes, you might be wondering why I would fall for your looks? Not super hot eh looks, not super hot eh body, and all that right. But that is not what I see. What I see is someone pretty and beautiful and someone who brings calmness and sweetness and fills my heart full of warmth and your eyes that looks so lovely when I look at you and you look back. If anyone ask me to choose between you and a supermodel, I would choose you 100 out of 100 times. No doubt about it. You can say that your presence and your looks fills my soul with satisfaction and love, everytime without fail. I just love it.

And as I’ve been telling you, we both need a bit more time to work and compromise for each other, so that we can understand each other more and more, and walk our roads together as one. There will be no ego one, I will drop all my ego when I’m with you, and compromise with you every step of the way. I will make this relationship work, and learn from all my past mistakes so that you will have a nice and comfortable relationship with me. But I ask that you also must do the same, and let me know when I make a mistake, and voice out to me whenever you feel uncomfortable so that I can correct the mistake immediately. Is that ok?

I know you have dreams, and one of them is to go Korea. I would love to help you fulfill that dream, using whatever means possible. Hopefully, things will be settled by then and we can then go on this dream trip with an open mind and open heart, without the baggage of our past relationship. I’m looking forward to this trip really. You are the woman of my dream that I never thought I had, and it is my duty to make you happy and make your dream come true as well.

I know there are still many uncertainty in the near future, especially regarding our status as work colleagues and how to face the people in the office. But I feel that both of us are adults that deserve our own happiness with each other, and no matter what we do or say, there will always be people who judge us. I want to say that let these people judge, because you cannot make all the people happy all the time. You can make some people happy all the time, or all the people happy some of the time, but never both. Anyway, we don’t owe our life and our way of living to them, so as long as we are clear with our conscience, then it will be ok. People will always gossip, just let it them be. We owe only the explanation to our own self, not to others.

Will there be more to come? Yes, so far actually what I have done is from my own heart, my own initiative. I would love it if you could tell me how you want me to treat you, what kind of things you like, what sort of things makes you warm and lovely, so that I have a better idea. I know it’s still early days, but since you’ve already decided, just treat this as giving me some training or preview of what’s to come, can?

We’re all imperfect in our own ways, and to create a better future together I hope that we can be open and transparent with each other about our feelings and our fears and how we can learn from each other. I want to share every little details about my daily life with you, that’s why I always ask about yours as well, and I try to tell you everything as well. I hope that you don’t find this annoying; as it means so much to me that you’re willing to share your day with me, since I have so little time to be with you. This is the only way I can feel closer to you, every little update makes me happy and appreciate you more and more.

Will there be any more upcoming trips? Yes why not? Near or far, in Malaysia or overseas, it doesn’t matter. What matters is I bring you around to experience a bit more of life compared to now. I hope you love to go on trips with me, I know I do.

I guess this chapter has gone on long enough for now, and in ending, I would like to reiterate again that you mean so much to me, I miss you even when you’re next to me, and I have never loved a person so much ever in my life. You’re the first, and you will be the last. Again, I hope and wish that my sincerity is enough for you, and if you give and open your heart to me, I will sayang and love you more and more each day, and will fall in love with you again and again.

There is no one else I love more than you, Zerline.

25/11/23
5:22pm